Dance Till You Drop

2009-05-09T22:53:00.000-07:00

Disappointments ,
Hatred , Sorrows,
My Feelings About The Past.
Why Arent I Dead Yet?

Why am i still here?
Why arent i dead?
Does God want me to know something?
Does HE wants me to suffer?
Why me? I know that others are suffering.
But my life is just meaningless for anyone to continue on.
People are avoiding me.
I'm just a nuisance to others.
Through their eyes, i'm just nothing.
I'm just a being with no future in hand.
Daydreaming things that wont come true.
Why am i still here?
Just take away my life
I will be happy.
There's nothing much for me to do in this world.
Mother nature is crying out for help.
We dont hear her cries.
The world is crumbling.
I cant be there for her that long.
seeing her is too painful for me.
i rather die than seeing her suffer for that long.
we have say our piece about it.
but are the big people doing anything?
why am i crying?
why am i hurting inside?
in the future, the snows will be the ashes.
ashes of our loved ones who died.
ashes of our future.
crumbles.
why arent we doing anything to change?
it does hurt.
it hurts badly.
it does leave a scar.
we cant forget the past.

the sun is hiding,
it wont come out until we do something,
we cant wait.
i want that sun back.
relight the darkness within my heart.

Yuki

2009-05-07T04:13:00.000-07:00

It is coming to an end? Are we really going to separate?
I know that i'm being an Ass but deep inside,
I'm just hurt. I'm waiting for you. Waiting for your heart to open again.
But, it seems to me that the opportunity wont be in my hands.
Loving you back is impossible for me to achieve.
You're getting more beautiful now and i'm just heartache
to see you with the new looks. I'm just scared that you'll be with someone else.
I want you back in my life. I dont want us to be friends.
I want more than that. I want to love you back like last time.
Dont you remember? We spent almost 24 hours together and we got through
our high and lows. Pictures of you is all i have to make me happy.
Did i ever get an email from you just to let me know that you're okay?
GOD Damnit, I search for you all over the site and trying to get infos on you.
Friendster and your old email is all i have to get in touch with you.
But, you didnt came back. Waited for you.
It seems long but it's worth it.
I'm just a fool to wait for you. But my heart says it's fine.
What the hell is wrong with me?
Why cant i get you out of my head?
My heart aches everytime. I just dont know why.
The long wait pays off and you came back.
I cant believe my eyes that you're back.
I'm happy.. It's more than happiness.
It's priceless to see you back.
When you told me everything, i got worried even more.
It's great to hear that you're doing pretty good in your studies
And pursuing your dreams.
I'm just sitting there and trying to be happy for you.
Right now, i think that i cant have you back in my life.
Well, we are friends but it'll not be the same.
Every painful memories will keep on haunting me.
I'm just an ordinary guy. I have an ordinary life.
Well, to be honest, i dont stand a chance to get you back as my love.
Nothing i do can make you happy.
I'm just a nuisance in life.
I rather kill myself and be with my father.
But why arent i doing it?
WHY?! I just want to be a person who is unknown to all.
I dont make a difference in people's lives.
I dont do extraordinary things.
I JUST HATE MY FREAKING LIFE.
I will be happy for you if the right guy comes to you.
I'll be happy for you.

Sun shining on brightly,
but the clouds came.
Everyone is disappointed.
It wont come back.
Trust me.
Rain will be ur fear and pain in your life.

Goodbye Then
Yuki

2009-05-04T22:22:00.000-07:00

Will I regain back all the memories
That I lost? Will I be forever ALONE?
I dont want that.. No one wants it..
NEVER~!!!

Combine science MCQ paper today. Reached school early today. Too EARLY to be exact. Tried to revise without anyone disturbing me. The swine flu crisis is getting worse each day and everyone is taking pre-cautions for it. Every morning, same routine. Take our temperature and report back to the teacher in charge. One of my classmates got sent back home and he didnt get to take the exams today. Wish him well and recover quick. Jonathan came and revised with me. Trying to absorb as much information into head and I tried to stay awake. Slept too late yesterday night. Met Venka on my way back home and he look good. Still having those muscles. haha~ tryingto impress me although I'm not GAY. Tomorrow is Maths exams and i have to score better marks so that my maths teacher wont nag at me anymore. She's a great teacher and teaches us well. Hope that i could make her proud. Well, that's all.

Alone? Nah~

Soul

2009-05-03T23:04:00.000-07:00

Melting... Melting...
The sun is too hot,
I cant bear the pain and i'm dying,
It is too much just to ask you to kill me?

Today's paper isnt that bad except for one question that i didnt do due to the insufficient timing. The others have enough content for the markers to read and maybe give me marks which could satisfy me. Nothing much has change, grandma is out of the hospital and my family is still having problems. well, not exactly my family, i think that it's just me having tough times. Ah, the old days are coming or maybe new things will arouse as time goes by. My friends getting hang of the polytechnic life and I'm still stuck in my secondary life. That sucks bad. Trying to change for the better and now, i'm thinking positive about the education life. It really does benefits me. Oh oh, guess what? I'm getting a second chance to get a passing grade for my CCA. I have to do them so that they could cut off my poly points. Getting into poly is not easy these days. *sigh*

Melting... bleh... -.-'''

soul

2009-05-02T18:43:00.000-07:00

Snow = Memories?
Why am i comparing snow with memories?
Are they similar? Memories will go fade away,
Like Snow melting away.

The mid year examination have started and the few papers are quite okay for me to handle. There's too much problems are going on in my family. I cant really get my head straight and focus on the exams. Maybe i'm too relax for it and i have to do better for my exams so that i wouldnt go back to school with my mother for the meet-the-parents session. They will say everything that they wanna say and that will ruin all of my life. *sigh* shouldnt be too relax now.. well, that's all i think. oh ya, month of may.. time flies by quickly.. Oh my..

Time time time
Soul

2009-04-23T22:58:00.000-07:00

Drifting away from the loved ones,
Those lost souls begged for mercy,
Begged for another life,
To resolve their problems.

Weeks passed by and the same problems still lurking around my house. Problems here and there. when will it ever stop? i'm having problems and now my family needs me to settle their problems. i'm just a student who is working part time job and you expect me to settle the bills? i could settle my own phone bill but not the electricity bill. i could cut down my usage of the computer but dont ever ask for money to pay the bills. every action i execute, there will be someone stopping me and giving me advice before i repeat the same mistakes over and over again. this life sucks. i know it is. Well, people will say that other people's lives are more worse than mine and i ahve to agree to that but this is my opinion about my life. do i need a neon signboard to tell people that i'm having problem or should i just keep it as a secret and just handle it by taking in those painful sorrows into my heart? does that really work? if you are an emo person, well yes it does. my friend once told me - "Share with other people whom you trust the most and seek advice from that particular person. maybe he/she could help you out." My friend was right but one thing is a problem to me, that person whom i trust the most is gone from my life and i need her advice right now. she's living too far away from me. i cant be flying there and seek for her this year. well, i have to do the hard way out of the mess.

Are you the one?
ゆき

2009-01-01T16:09:00.000-08:00

Is love really blind or is it just toying with our feelings to attract other people,

It does hurt to leave someone whom u love dearly and just walk away from them,

That kind of pain wont go away that easily,

That pain will just stay in ur heart forever and it might haunt ur mind,

Does this always happened during life.

For some reason, I'm still cant stop thinking about her.

I know that we have seperated from each other,

But everyday, i woke up just to see her in the morning.

Waiting for her messages and her calls.
I know it's a dumb thing but i just dont know why am i doing that.

Is this true love or just plain daily routine.

The long sorrows will have it's revenge.

I'll try to stay strong but deep down,

The pain is unbearable.

If you're reading this post,

I'm sorry.

I cant stop thinking about you.

It's true that when you said that we cant get back together.

But, we will still be friends. If you want to.

If you have any problems,

just share it with me (i doubt that you will).

Take care~

Soul
The sorrows just begun

2008-12-28T06:45:00.001-08:00

~ AUDITION PICTURES ~

~ Event Dj is in the room. I'm the lucky one ~

~ Eat my headspin XD ~

~ Event Dj did the crazy move on a fast song ~

~ Two people versus Event DJ ~

~ Maple Wedding On 27 December ~

~ First Shot ~

~ 2nd Shot ~

2008-12-28T06:05:00.000-08:00

Weeks pass by,
I waited for you at the same spot,

Looking at the crowd,
You're no where to be found. *sigh*

Hey guys, been sleeping at my cuz's house for three days straight. It feels great man.. haha~ just kidding. actually, i was suppose to go back home today but my lil brother cried and cried until my uncle gave up and let him sleep at the house again just for the night. Lolz~ i'm gonna get scoldings from my mom later. anyways, today, i got work at fullerton hotel which is located near to the merlion statue. kakak nasha didnt make it to work coz she was sick and i had to control the children alone and it was like.. OMG~!!! Kakak Ila came to the rescue and took over kak nasha's place. phew~ work ended at 3pm.. went to jurong point to meet with my aunt, she went to buy new pair of specs. i also want to buy new ones but it's gonna be next year. hehe~ after making the payment for the new specs, we went to pizza hut to eat. Well, that's for today update.. nothing much to here.. haha~ take care~

~ My Cuz using the same phone as me. ~
~ Copycat ~

~ The Two Troublemaker ~

~ My Favourite Drink ~

~ My Uncle & Aunt ~

2008-12-26T09:03:00.000-08:00

~Random Pictures~

I was going to take the accident scene in front of me,

but it took this quite good picture.
Nice?

Adi and me went to Marsiling to play pool,

taken before he went to KL.

Captain Faiz. Taken During chirstmas day.
Where's his eye-patch?

Faiz and me. Taken during our braderz's time.

We're in a National Geography Museum in VivoCity.

Soul~

2008-12-26T08:41:00.000-08:00

I wish that saying goodbye has an easier way,
But each time it gets harder and harder,
Just to say it to your loved ones.

Pictures Taken During My Family Day-Out (22nd December) :

~ Cik Lin & Mom ~
~Enjoying The Food As Expected ~

~ Bro Playing With The Sands ~

~ High View From The Pyramid ~

~Delicacies From Hajah Maimunah Restaurant~

Hey sorry for the late post. Was trying to get my photoshop from my uncle and i got it like one week from the date. Haha~ anyways, the family day was a great fun. In the morning, we went to an area which i fell asleep during the trip and forgot where we're going. Ate our breakfast at some restaurant. we ordered nasi lemak just to fill our hungry stomach during the morning period. after that, we went to my school to get my N level results. sadly, i cant bring back the result again. it's like what the fuck la, my mom was quite pissed off and the school clerk says that they will call my mom when the VP has come back from the three-days-meeting. We went to West Coast Park to let my lil brother play with the sands. hang around at that place for about 1 and half hours and set our net destination to hajah maimunah restaurant at geylang but it closed to some reasons. luckily, my mom knows another place where the 2nd restaurant was built. it was near to bugis mrt station. we went there to have our dinner and after the sumptious dinner, we head back to woodlands to get showered and get ready for the next trip. my mom says that orchard is going to have a night light at the streets and she wanna go there to take a look. but i didnt go with them because i was tired.. so, i stayed at home alone until 12am. well, that's all for today. take care~

Soul~

2008-12-26T08:18:00.001-08:00

Air Is Limitless,
Air Is Free,
It Has No Boundaries,
It Flows Freely.

~ My Creative Balloons ~

~ The Cute Baby ~

For the people who want to know what i work as. Well, the top pic is a basket full of balloons. so, by the time your eyes set sight on it, u might have guess that i'm a clown. but, i'm not really a clown. i'm a balloon sculptor, which is a part of the clown's job. i like to make shaped balloons. i also take care of children while their parents have their time eating in the diner or they went out with their friends while their children are under the care of the hotel personnel. it's quite a fun job cos u get to meet new people and new kids. they might be annoying but the pay is out of this world. haha~ well, i have to post more pics about my work. take care, nites~

Soul~

2008-12-16T06:40:00.000-08:00

Is there a ray of hope,
When we need it the most?
Do we have to find it,
Or does it find us?

sorry for the late post. been sleeping very late. my 2nd brother been at home all the time and i've been angry with him for a long time but what's the use of anger when u cant do anything. right now, my mom gave me a chance to go ITE if i fail my N level. this is the first time that i hear she said that. she's been disagreeing my decisions and now, she finally agree with me. i dont know why but i think she's letting me to go with my passion. if i pass my O lvl, i will go for sec 5. just cant wait for the results on thursday. *sigh* hope that i wont disappoint my mom. well, that's for today. until then, take care... oh ya, the tagboard is up.. feel free to tag me..

Soul

Love you~

2008-12-12T10:39:00.000-08:00

We cant skip chapters in life,
We just have to keep moving forward,
Dealing obstacles without running away from it,
We're just learning about our past and present.

It's 2.41 am in the morning and i'm still awake.. wide awake~ wow.. did i drink something or do something to keep myself awake? haha~ the answer is maplestory. the notice have reminding me about the duration of how long i've spent playing maple and the last notice was 'You have played maplestory for 7 hour(s). We suggest that you take a break from mapling.' but i didnt take a break, i just kept on going until i lvl up. and now, my lvl is 45. haha~ three weeks and the result is that. quite okay for a new beginner. Oh ya, i got my salary today. i thought that my salary was only like 200 plus because i didnt do much events last month but i ended up getting 300 bucks in bank. i was like - 'How much am i suppose to withdraw?' haha~ now, i'm saving the money for my bill and just to put as an emergency money. Quite smart eh? haha~ cant wait for the next salary. my aim is to save up to 1,000 bucks. well, it might take awhile but i can wait for it to happen. hah~ until next time, take care.

Soul
Searching for it

2008-12-09T07:33:00.000-08:00

Does everyday have a weird moment?
Do you feel that you done something right,
But it turn out wrong?
Wow, i'm not the only one..

Today, i went to IMM to get my new phone (Sony Ericsson 760i) and it's a new sign up for line. My mom wasnt sure that she should give me that previlege but the plan is so cheap and it gives me unlimited sms. what a deal~ so, my mom only had to pay the phone which only cost $88 because this is the third line under my mom's name. first line is hers , second line is my aunt and third is mine. so the starhub gave the third line free SIM card and we only have to pay for the phone. cool~ I got a new number and i chose the colour red for my phone. i thought that there's black for that model but it doesnt have any. *sigh* well, my N-gage is still with me because i'm gonna use it when i'm in NS. haha~ cant wait for my N level result. 9 more days...

Soul
It just started

2008-12-08T07:48:00.000-08:00

It's morning, i'm barely awake..
The rays slowly pierce through the dark clouds,
And it laid it's shine on my eyes.
Slowly open my eyes, i see a person - right in front of me.
It was YOU~!!!

Today is hari raya haji. it's a day whereby all the sheeps and goats are being slaughtered for their meats. it's like a sacrifice to our GOD. I dont know but that's what i think about. we had to do morning prayers but i didnt go for it. i was damn tired after my work yesterday. I thought that i was going to sign up for a starhub line but my mom says that she will be doing that on wednesday. *sigh* just have to be patient then. it's been two months since waited for that brand new phone. Cant do anything much but just to wait for it to come. My dar has started her work at a company in bishan and i've been thinking of fetching her from work. but tis month, i'm totally booked by my own work. cant find the right time to have that special moment with her. Oh ya, about work yesterday, it was fun and i got to meet alot of new but weird people at IMM. cute kids but most irritating parts are the parents. they had to pester me to get the balloons. *sigh* luckily, i didnt get angry that easily. haha~ controlling the temper. phew~ well, that's it for today. until then, take care.

Soul
Will always be in your heart.

2008-11-30T02:02:00.000-08:00

Everytime i open my eyes for the morning rays,
I think of you being there right in front of my eyes.
But you weren't there and i didnt give up hope.
Cause I trust you. I know you will be there.

I woke up late for work today and i only got 10 mins to get out from the house. My mom wasnt at home and I almost forgot that my ez-link was low on the credits. Took out my emergency money and rushed out of the house. I missed the train and i was damn late. Listen to my PSP MP3 and just waited for it. Reach my workplace but my boss' assistant wasnt there. Phew~ i'm not the only one who is late for today. hehe~ I was damn tired and i tried to stay awake during work period. Played the PS3 there and just watch the children run around and jumping up and down at the bouncing castle. Oh ya, my lil cuz got his 'birdie' cut.. hehe~ it went well but he's still making alot of noises. *sigh* i wish that he could change. well, that's for today.

Dawn turn to day,
Day turn to night,

I tried to patient to wait for you.
But my love for you is too strong.

Dar, I need you.
I wanna hold you,
Hug you,

Kiss you,
Just to listen to your sweet voice.
It always melt my heart.
Dar, i love you forever.
Promise me that you'll be there.
Promise me, please~

Does love hurt?
Soul

2008-11-28T19:39:00.000-08:00

Is this making me irritated?
Why am i feeling insecure?
Does this makes me mature?

Sorry for not updating much in this blog. My bro's laptop has just been fixed but my desktop is still down. I dont know what 'destroy' the thing but i'm going find someone to fix it. My friend said that its motherboard is going to be dead soon. But now, my uncle said it's the monitor problem. *sigh* which is which? I'm wrecking my brain to figure this out. i'm running out of ideas. I have financial problem and i'm waiting for my salary for the next month. hehe~ My monthsary with her is coming soon. Am i going to give her the christmas present on that day or later? i dont know. waaaaaaaaaahhhhhh~ HELP ME~!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm going to buy the new phone next month. i cant wait for that day. haha~ well, that's all for today then... see ya next time.

Will you be in my heart?

Soul

2008-11-09T05:00:00.000-08:00

What will happened to you when you die?
Do you have any control over your soul?
Will it wonder like a lost soul?

Hey there. Back again with another post of my life. Been reflecting my past mistakes and i tried to change for the better and it is going smoothly with my family. I got pissed off during these past few days. That 'person' keep on messaging me. I told her not to message me after we broke up and i dont want any connection with her. ARGH~ damn pissed off la. Was going like to say vulgarities to her right now but what's the use. she will still try to woo me back. Her fake tears and her fake excuses. She still loves me? Hah, go to hell with that. If you still love me, why you chose to break with me? wasnt that a stupid decision of yours? Right now, my dar feels insecure. Sorry dar, i'm not in the mood to cheer up. It really pissed me off everytime she message me. Doesnt she have other guys to message with? Why me?! WHY IN THE HELL DID SHE CHOOSE ME?! GOD DAMN IT LA~!!!! I have wash my hands over her and connections are lost between me and her. right now, i only love one person. well, it's that person but my dar.. i hope you wont feel insecure after reading this. Dar, wo ai ni~

The path we chose might not be right,

There will be obstacles,

We have to deal them to succeed in life,

If we fall and just do nothing,

Our lives are meaningless.

Loving someone is a huge decision,

Think carefully before making any,

It might hurt or please the person.

em0guyz-Soul

It starts NOW~!!!

2008-11-06T05:55:00.000-08:00

Matsuri Festival (Day 2)

Vampire Knights

Characters From D.Grayman

Ash Is Daydreaming

Ash Ketchum & Pikachu

Characters From Naruto

Battle Scene

DJ , Sasuke , Smiley

2008-11-05T04:51:00.000-08:00

I'm back from the grave. Nah~ just kidding. Just took a long holiday from blogging.
Many things happened. But I just want to forget about my past. Oh yeah, the day when my father passed away
has passed. It has been 7 years now since he died. *sigh* I didnt even visit his grave because on that day, someone died and i had to go to the funeral. It's my grandfather's sister. People are dying around me.
Wish i died earlier on. Why GOD is giving me this torture?

Soul
The Beginning

2008-09-03T06:48:00.000-07:00

~MATSURI FESTIVAL PICS~

The Stage Is Set~!!!

The Schedule For That Day

The Four Japanese Maids

Random Characters

New Maid To The Group

Matsuri Festival Jrock : Cloud Sef

Matsuri Festival Jrock : Macfurry